Becky:  I have so much confusion inside of me and have for so long. I am not sure if I will be able to phrase this so that I can get my question across. I feel I am caught between the world and truth. I suffer from depression and have read one comment you wrote on that subject about getting rid of the baggage. I am willing to do that, only I am not aware of the baggage I am hanging onto. Also, I am going through a divorce and also quit my job a few weeks ago. I was so burned out with it. Now I am looking for another and finding nothing out there that interests me or that I qualify for. I have raised 4 children and am almost 50 and don't really have any ambitions guess my question is, will the right job find me or do I need to continue to look? I find the burning desire to come home overwhelming. Thanks you for any light you can throw on this question.

Umi: Until you are clear with what you want, you will continue groping in the dark.  If it is about finding a job, or finding the 'right' job, then you have come to the wrong place.  There are plenty of job consultants in the world, who can help you with this.  If you are really \"...caught between the world and truth\", then you have to decide which you want.  They are both available to you.  But you have to first decide.  If it is the world you want then this is not the place.  But if it is Truth you want, then first know what Truth means.  Truth is not a comfort zone.  Truth is not food for the ego.  Truth is not satisfactions for the mind.  Truth is not something that will fit your ideal.  Truth is naked.  To move towards Truth, first there needs to be total acceptance.  Surrender to all that is happening in your life, all that is happening around you, all that is happening inside you, all the feelings, both emotional and physical.  But first, you decide.

Love
Umi